But Hot Pix RIGHT?
I’ve been working
on this for a coupla weeks now. When you came over last night, I had second thoughts about finishing it and giving it to you. But when I examined my motives and found they were only 20% self-serving & selfish and 80% filial & Christianic, those odds were good enough for me. They may not be enough for you and, of course, that’s okay, if not, it never goes past the masseuse/client dynamic.
When you came over a back then, the pain of the turn this tortuous little triangle was taking—and the dread of a future you saw coming—was all over you. Then, as you were talking, I saw you—but not the you I know.*
Then last night, you looked so anguished. What you were afraid of had come to pass and I really think you were blindsided by how much it hurt. You’re pretty consistent with rebuffing about 1/-2/3 of my observations, but last night your head and posture kept lowering and your voice became harder to hear as you quietly agreed with every one.
*more on that later
Before, I kept wondering what I could do to help. I just wanted something nice. Like really nice. But even if I had the money I wouldn’t know what to give you. But I do have all…this…inside and it’d be nice to get all that out (20%) and give it to someone who could actually benefit from it (80%).